venting!!

eek
what an afternoon i have only been home for like an hour and i am going crazy in this empty house. with school around the corner and stupid financial aid being dumb it has me going crazy. i wonder if this is a sign from God. like i wonder if he is trying to tell me to slow down to relax to get better before i try to take on the world. its just so frustrating i have always been able to go go go and not look back and now i can't even make any progress anywhere its so frustrating to feel this helpless! for crying out loud things are just plain old out of control and i can't take it! i am trying to relax tho even on the ride home all i could think about was school school school transferring to st ed's emailing the transfer counselor ay ay ay and my heart is beating so freakin fast and i can't calm down until i know what the heck is happening eek! summer school may have just ruined my life how will i pay for rent how will i live! well if worse come to worse i will take out another loan to take care of all of the above since aid is being stupid! but seriously! i need a hug a cry and freakin parents that are understanding! ahhhhhhhhh okay that is all my head hurts i may need a nap to cool off